A teenager has made a film with Fixers showing how her mental illness makes her feel like she is trapped 'inside a bubble' that's invisible to the outside world.
Jade Forsyth was diagnosed with psychotic depression, which causes her to hallucinate, two years ago.
The 19-year-old, who lives in Falkirk, Stirlingshire, says: ‘When my emotions are all over the place it’s like being inside a big bubble that’s invisible to everyone but me.
'On bad days the bubble is full of issues, I get lost in negativity and can barely see the outside world.
‘It feels like that until I open it up and tell someone, then everything that’s in there can be released and it relieves some of the pressure.
‘I know how hard it is to be honest about how you’re feeling and I want the film to let people know that it’s okay to open up.'
Jade first realised something was wrong when she was 11.
‘I have had symptoms of psychotic depression since the first year of high school,’ she says.
‘At first I felt down and depressed. Over the years this built up and I started having more psychotic symptoms and I began hallucinating.
‘My behaviour changed and I became angry at the world. My teachers didn’t understand what I was going through – they thought I was a bad kid who wanted attention.
‘I started self-harming and I became withdrawn. Sometimes I didn't go to school and I hardly met up with my friends.’
At the age of 17 Jade was prescribed medication and referred to a psychiatrist.
‘It was very hard at the start – I didn’t know how to accept the diagnosis,’ she says.
‘You hear people using words like ‘psycho’ or ‘mental’ and they just think it’s normal to call people that, so it was tough getting diagnosed as psychotic.
'I felt like that label would follow me for the rest of my life. But speaking about the issues I had meant things started to get better.’
Jade plans to share the film in schools, colleges and youth clubs.
The community development assistant adds: ‘I don’t think young people always recognise mental health conditions.
‘If they’re feeling down or depressed I’d love for them to be able to talk to someone if it gets too much. I hope they will realise that once they open up things get a lot easier.’
This project has been supported by the JMA Trust.
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